Sunday, 21 December 2014

Teacher Diaries #2: An uncomfortable visit.

Today, I found myself in quite an awkward situation.
I visited my Nanna, at which time she had her friend visiting.
My Nanna asked how my PGCE course was going, it had been a while since I saw her last.
I briefly explained how I love every second, how it gives me incredible highs but, how equally, it is incredibly intense and i’m quite drained from it all.

Such question sparked this friend of hers to begin running down the teacher profession, he very rudely interrupted the conversation and snorted at my comment and proceeded to dictate his opinions to the full room. He spoke of how he knows teachers who never leave the house because they work so little, teachers who do nothing to get paid a decent amount. He spoke of how ridiculous of me to say I often do 14 hour days and then spend all weekend planning. Clearly I must have been lying.
And on his zero hours of experience in education, surely he must be right.
He was down right insulting, comments I do not need to go into any further, as I'm sure you can begin to develop a picture.

At this point another family member decided to join in, perhaps joking, but still laughing at my expense.
The tone and harshness of each sentence spoke broke me down just that little bit more.
It went on for what felt like forever, getting worse, putting me down personally, and putting the career down further.

But what did I do? I hear you scream at your computer.
I’m sure you’re thinking that I must’ve really put them in their place.

But no.
I sat there. Silently.
& placed all my energy into not crying.

And now, all I can do is think how wrong it was to just be bullied in that way.
How dare two people I respected and trusted put me down in such way?

All I keep thinking is how I should have defended myself.

I should have told them that actually, even though they are fully entitled to their own opinions, I do not have to sit in that room and listen to that sort of discussion.
I know how hard I work, I know how hard teachers work; and I certainly do not need either of their approval on the matter, but, at the same time, have some respect.
I should have told them that never, in a million years, would I have the audacity to walk into a room and put either one of their careers down in such way. 
I would never show such disrespect to another person who dedicates so much time to something.
And never, would I be so disrespectful to someone else's livelihood and career.
So why is okay for them to do it?
Because their older? Because I’m younger? Because I’m a female and will never know what ‘real work’ is?
It isn’t okay.


Perhaps I do need to build up my resilience.
& I’ve had sly comments an increasing amount since September, I expect many more.
But this was different. This was so much deeper than a sly dig, or passing comment.
And now, I’m sat here, completely frustrated and actually quite hurt by the situation.

So what now?

I can assure you that next time I will not be taking comments so quietly.
I do not think there is any need to be rude, or disrespectful in return.
However, it is important to defend what you believe and make known that you will not tolerate such comments at your expense.
I regret how I kept quiet today, and it will be different next time.

I’d very much like to see this person try the job out for a few weeks.


I'm interested if you've ever been in a similar situation, what have you done?


It appears as though I’ll be building up my resilience much more, as well as my need to speak up for myself.
Oh, there we have it, my first new years resolution.
To 2015.







Saturday, 6 December 2014

Because you can never see to many photo's of the sea.






As i'm sure you can see by my lack of blog posts,
Life is a little busy at the moment.

I've been getting incredibly stressed with work, car troubles and finances.
Today, I made sure I took an hour all to myself to walk across the sea front and take some photo's.
I feel the world better already!

What do you do to de-stress?

Sunday, 23 November 2014

Blog Sale.

BLOG SALE!

Postage on every item is an additional £3.50 to the price. However, buy more than one item and the postage does not increase (:

All items are on depeop and eBay so get in quick!
email kellyann.93@live.co,uk if you would like to purchase anything!
Feel free to make offers




New Look - Size 10 - £9

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River Island - Size 10 - £9

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Anmol - Size 10 (but would fit 12) - £7

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Oasis - Size 14 - £10

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 Bank Fashion - Size 12- £7

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Topshop - Size 4 - £15

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Topshop - Size 12 - £15

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Vintage slip dress

Size M (8-12) - £7

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Mod Dolly - Size S - £15

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Unbranded (as seen on Temporary Secretary) - Size S (10-12) - £7

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New Look - Size 10 - £7

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Wednesday, 12 November 2014

OOTD | Oh, Hello Fringe







|| Dress: Primark | Shoes: Topshop ||

A fringe!
Yes, a considerable change!
I'm sort of getting used to it - I thought it'd be hard to do each morning at 6am but I'm keeping up with it pretty well!
It seems to be growing SO quickly though!

How cute is this dress?
A gorgeous little primark find that I just can't get enough of!
I got these AMAZING collar clips of eBay for an amazing £3!

Sunday, 9 November 2014

Essington





Essington Fruit Farm is a local Fruit Farm from my home town in the West Midlands,
In Summer we pick Strawberries and other berries, come Autumn you can pick your own pumpkins!
A beautiful farm, with home made cakes and the most scenic views!

The farm was holding a Christmas Craft fair, my Dad held a stall to show his art work.
It sure was fun!
A lovely day filled with the cutest little stalls of knitted goods, art supplies and so much more.
You can check out my Dad's art work here.



Thursday, 6 November 2014

OOTD | That Tartan Cardigan.





|| Cami: Topshop | Skirt: H&M | Shoes: Topshop ||

As soon as Autumn hits, I look forward to wacking out this vintage tartan cardigan!
It's so warm and comfortable, each year I forget how snuggly it is.
I style it differently each year, this year I'm keeping it simple with a white cami and black body-con skirt



Sunday, 2 November 2014

OOTD | Green with envy




| New Look: Dress | Shoes: Topshop | Necklace: eBay |

Oh Hello there,
My, it's been a while.

I knew I'd by busy this year, but boy this is whole new levels of busy!

What a better place to get back into the swing of things than with an outfit post!
This super cute dress was from New Look, it's a great little everyday dress and a bit of a steal at £20!

Isn't the pattern beautiful!

Sunday, 12 October 2014

Lifestyle | 5 things i'd tell my teenage self.

My teenage years where particularly challenging for me; perhaps a little more than the average person. Much happened and it was a terribly unhappy time for me. As I've grown, i'm just beginning to realize it's okay to be me, no matter what others thing. I compiled a short list of the most important things i'd tell me early teen self...



Be yourself.
Being normal is not what you imagined, it's actually pretty boring. Yes, you're quirky, you don't like the same music and clothes as your friends. But you'll soon find out that that's what makes you, you. & soon, you'll find some real friends that'll love and admire that about you. That vintage style you love? You'll totally grow into that. Oh, and you know that charity shop shopping we've been doing since you was like, 10? That's like totally socially acceptable now. Woo!

Stand up for yourself.
Endless people have taken advantage of the fact you won't just speak up and stand up for yourself, and many, many more will before you realize. Babe, keeping quiet and doing everything people ask of you isn't actually making them like you, all it's doing is simply letting them walk all over you. The sooner you learn this, the less heartbreak you'll feel later.

Everything will always be okay.
You are going to achieve amazing things, far beyond your dreams.
You escape, you get away and you're creating a brilliant life for yourself a hundred miles from you're demons. Of course, there are hurdles, and heartbreak beyond measure. But everything, is always okay. Always. One way or another fate will guide us through and what will be will be.

People you spend to much time over are just not worth it.
You'll be surprised at who stays in your life and who, well, doesn't. It'll hurt, and it'll suck, but it'll come to a time where you realize these people are just so not worth it. The one's who stick around will be amazing to you. Oh, & You'll meet the most amazing people before you're 21, and I really feel as though they'll be hanging around for a long time!

Believe in yourself, your opinions and your morals.
This is what makes us special, our outlook on life. The way you see the world will be what gets you so far, people will admire your passion for teaching, your desire to care for people and you're not the terrible person you think you are; sure, there's still plenty of room for improvement, but stop hating yourself quite so much - it's just not going to help. 
Pursue all your interests, follow your dreams and believe in yourself.


Can you relate to these?



Wednesday, 8 October 2014

Kelly Explores | Last of the Summer sun





I've been making the most of my every rarer free weekends & the beautiful Devon weather!
Me & James drove to Bovisand to soak up those last few summer rays, I feel winter ever looming and can't help but get as much sun as I can!
Oh how much I love Devon.
I broke my only-three-month-old leather sandals climbing all the rocks... Whoops!
The sea was so beautiful, and surprisingly warm!



Saturday, 4 October 2014

OOTD | Its never to early for tartan







|| Blouse: Vintage | Skirt: New Look | Shoes: Topshop | Necklace: eBay ||


I'm not sure about the rest of the United Kingdom, but here in Plymouth it's still so so warm!
On this slightly cooler day I grabbed the opportunity to whizz out my Autumn wardrobe, and what a place to start than with than a tartan bodycon!?
These shoes are the New Topshop's answer to geek shoes - I loooove them, they're just so pretty, don't you think?

Tuesday, 30 September 2014

#1 | The Student Teacher Diaries

So I've begun upon my journey to become the Primary School Teacher i've always wanted to be, and whilst is absolutely amazing, it is also incredibly terrifying.
To help me along the journey, and to find anyone going through something similair, I'll be creating this new mini series discussing my progress, feelings and anything else that comes to mind!
 
 
I'm currently 26 days into my course, so almost a month I suppose!
It's pretty brilliant - the school and year one class I have been placed in are both amazing, I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful oppurtunity!
 
However, I'm feeling incredibly overwhelmed
I had a week at the University, which was rather brilliant as it meant an extra two hours in bed each morning! But it also made me accustomed to how difficult this year is going to be. The amount of evidence I need to document is absolutely crazy!
 
The early mornings are killing me;
I'm awake at 5:30, I leave at 6:30am and arrive home around 6:30pm.
It's an hour commute, which isn't so bad when I have a good radio station on and a bit of fresh air.
But I do so hope I can get used to the long days, I've already had three migraines!
 
I've made some pretty brilliant student friends, I'm in with a pretty awesome bunch, and it's great to be able to that support to!
 


Friday, 26 September 2014

I DID IT!





|| Dress: Lipsy @ Bank | Shoes: Primark ||

I DID IT! I graduated!
I now have a BA(Hons) Early Childhood Studies, 2:1!
What a proud and emotional day it was... I sure shed a few tears.
The gown was incredibly uncomfortable....I advise anyone to take safety pins & hair grips!
However, the room was beautiful, the weather was great and the was such an amazing atmosphere to top it all off.





Monday, 22 September 2014

OOTD | Goodbye Summer.





|| Blouse: Vintage | Necklace: Dorothy Perkins | Jumper: H&M | Skirt: H&M | Shoes: New Look ||

The colder weather is well and truly here, and my summer clothes are being folded away & being replaced by darker tones and comfy jumpers!
My Autumn/Winter wardrobe this year will consist of collars & jumpers. Watch this space!
I adore this jumper from H&M, and for £14.99 it's a bargain!
This is one of my ultimate favourite blouses, it's a vintage piece i've had for a few years now.

Isn't the beach beautiful?
I'm not one for only sticking to summer months to visit the beach!
I'm loving Paignton very much!