Tuesday, 17 December 2013

Blogmas #17: My biggest fear.

I saw the lovely Alex over at AllyTeePee do this post,
Mine is definitely not as heartfelt as hers but I thought it was really interesting to read about, 
& I really wanted to try it out.

So. I have three super big fears.

i. the dark
Yeah yeah, conventional right?
But i'm terrified.
If I'm left on my own in the dark, outside or inside, I will sob and sob uncontrollably.
If James goes back to Birmingham & i'm in the flat alone, or even if we've had a row & he sleeps in the spare room - this instantly means I have to sleep with the light on.
I have really good reasons from it steming from some deep childhood path - but I don't think i'll ever get over it.

ii. old age
ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED.
I do NOT want to age another year. I want to go BACK already and I'm 20.
This also makes me cry.
I am not afraid of death whatsoever, but I'm absolutely terrified of reaching 30.
I can't cope.
Thinking about it brings me out in a panic attack.
I don't know why, or how this happened.
But its happening.
And I have absolutely no control over it.

iii. plasters
Okay, this is probably the weirdest thing ever right.
But. It's so bad, I have physically passed out before upon removing a plaster from a cut on my ankle.
Thinking about them, writing this post, turn my legs to jelly and makes my head spin.
Once I burnt myself really severely, head to peal melted trousers off my blistered skin, got in bandaged, it became infected, had to peel plaster and puss off stuck skin - you get the idea.
I can't even say anymore.
I could cry thinking about it.


So thats it!
I wide variety i'm aware - haha!
I'd love to know what you afraid of?




No comments:

Post a Comment

I'd love to hear from you, let me know what you think :)